i love blogs to read. i need to post more of mine but i need some sparks of fuel to do so. i feel like my blog is boring compared to others. i need to make mine more interesting. sometimes i just got no confidence and i got to get myself back together. i have had my ups and downs the past couple of weeks. it made me a stronger person. life is never easy. i was taught that thinking positive and weeding out the negatives is the way to live your life.

dont you hate when friends become selfish and taking you for granted? you do everything and they dont realize you are going through so much that they never bothered to ask. i still put a smile on my face even though i am crushing on the inside. it sucks but at least i know who my true friends are. someday, just someday they will realize who really has been there for them.

an advice, once you're dating someone and you noticed red flags, get out fast. don't wait too long to give them chances because you think they will change. they won't. i am too soft hearted and i love to help people. i learned a lot and its a lesson learned. i can do way much better than this. i want to thrive out there in this world and spread my wings. there are so much things i want to do in life and i need to take one step at a time.

i thank god for my family. i would not know who or where i am if it wasn't for them. they have been my backbones. they grabbed my falls. i want to succeed because of them. they are unbelievably amazing. they appericate big and small things. they said discover, explore and dream. i take that with me everywhere. my aunt once said to me, put on a helmet and just go through the tough obstacles.

and you know, when people said crying are for wimps. not true at all. crying is a good process for you to heal. let it all out. cry and scream, trust me you will feel a lot better. remember they are people out there got it worst than you like living out on the streets and really sick. yet they have smiles on their face. that inspired me. live your life even when its hard because you are taught to learn. i rather to go through so much to understand instead of nothing and not understanding life. *putting my helmet on*

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts--Winston Churchill

happy 36th anniversary, mom&dad. your love for each other inspires me everyday. you two are the reason why i want to take my time. the way you two argue are the cutest agruements ever because laughters are always bursting out at the end. the way you hold hands. the way you look at each other. the sparks are still there after 40 years together.

dad, thanks to your sperms for creating me&bro.
mom, thanks for carrying us for nine months.
thanks for everything, always being there for us.

i am so proud that you are my parents. ♥

it has been awhile since i've blogged. ive been bad with it. lost track of time to do it. the warm weather is finally here. it is currently raining right now. our flowers need it. my mom did a beautiful job doing the flowers on our front yard, definitely will take pictures of it soon. it is so colorful and so vibrant, got to love that kind of feeling.

i went to three fairs last week and guess what? i forgot my camera each time, unlike me. *smacking my forehead* i so wanted to take pictures of the ferris wheel (my favorite ride). i love being stuck on the top, the wind blowing out my hair, cotton candy in hand and being with my loved ones. i wish i could take my dogs, that would be hilarious. i pigged out and loved every minute of it, cotton candies, caramel candy apples, hot dogs, chicken keab and cold drinks. music bands. old people holding hands. teenagers running around. kids crying and foods smeared all over their faces. girls giggling over cute boys. people laughing. people winning and received huge stuffed animals. i won a cute monkey for winning the water gun shooting. i beat my mom and my brother, we re so competitive when it comes to that game. :D

i will go to another fair soon and i am going to take pictures!

right now, im drinking smoothie from madison's right nearby my home. made my 3rd trip there within a week. they always put cute umbrellas on them. summer is here.

my best friend is graduating: props to you!

we always laugh when people say we're a cute couple
i am so glad you are in my life and became my best friend
there were times we laughed so hard that we could not breathe
there were times we wanted to strangle each other but we got over it so fast like gone with the wind

we are like lucy and desi. thelma and louise. bud and lou.
we act like teenagers bickering
we act like a married old couple
best friends, we are.

wherever in life we end up, you will always be in my heart. we have been through heart breaks, bad friendships, tough obstacles and we were there for each other and will do so with our dentures
your future wife have to put up with me :)

♥ you and congratulations. keep on dreaming and i believe you can achieve in anything you desire to.

by: me

i am excited to pick this picture for my head shot. i got to make my resume. i am so ready to get myself out there and discover more about myself. i cant expect things to come to me sometimes. i got to go after what i want.

i found a good quote today that i want to share:

Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can't love and respect yourself - no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are - completely; the good and the bad - and make changes as YOU see fit - not because you think someone else wants you to be different--Stacey Charter

happy birthday to my beautiful mommy. this picture just represent us. always having a good time&being ourselves. you are the most positive, sweet, caring, funny and thoughtful person and i am so glad i got those traits from you. you are so full of life. always be you, mommy. i love you so much.

go&check out his work :)